The Beginning

“‎Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen Hard. Practice wellness. PLay with abondon. Laugh. Choose with no regrets. Appreciate your friends. Continue to learn. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is” 
― Dr. Seuss

For too many years now I have been living a half life and I am the only person to blame for it. I go throughout my days not just thinking but obsessing about what I am eating, what I am not eating, what I am doing to lose weight, What I am not doing to lose weight... I am starting to think that you understand what I am trying to say so we will move on. 

Anyway I can not tell you how many trips I have not taken, how many days at the beach I have turned down, how many times I have ruined a perfectly good date night with tears and a bad attitude all because I dislike who I am. 

The problem is up until now my effort to change has been minimal at best. Oh sure there have been weeks where my diet was decent, there have been days where I actually pushed myself during a workout but overall I have given up not just on my body but on my life. As a twenty something with the best of life ahead of me is that not that saddest most pathetic thing you have ever heard? In all reality it is selfish and wasteful. Everyday that is given to me is a blessing and privilege that so many are denied. 

So this is my attempt, my beginning of a new life. A life that I am going to make beautiful. I know there will be tears, there will be struggles and failures. I will fall on my butt except this time instead of making a nest out of my fears and self doubt so I can settle into my self loathing comfortably, I will use this as a way to help pull me up. 

Now I know this is seeming extremely self-indulgent and I swear that this is not a pity party. This will document the good, the bad, the ugly and the in between. This will be about me growing as a person but also about what makes me tick, what make it all worth it. There will be Exercise, Recipes, Books, Friends, Wedding Planning (eek!) family and so much more. Because I am trying to learn that there is so much more to me then the size of my jeans. So stick around and follow me on this journey .... It should be an adventure.... Welcome to my blog, Welcome to my beautiful life!